Hey My Loves, Happy Memorial Day Weekend! So recently I reconnected with an old friend from high school. When I was a freshman he was a senior and I was completely smitten.
I mean the biggest crush, but I behaved like all boys and girls who have a crush.
Instead of trying to actually get him to like me, I probably did everything in my power to annoy the shit out of him. LOL. High school crushes!
Anyway, not that it mattered after all I was raised by a single Dominican mom and so that’s all I could do! Crush on him!
Plus, it didn’t help that I was the latest bloomer ever and this guy looked like such a grownup to me. He didn’t even look my way while in school. Though he will insist he did.
Fast forward a few years later I walk into a club, all grown up (well 19 and yes I had a fake ID) and as I walked across the bar, who did I see? Yes!! Him!! My high school crush. I couldn’t believe it. My heart def skipped a beat!!
Now, I was still in the process of blooming – apparently my body had not caught up with all the other girls. But I happened to be coming from a fashion show (local) and was all dolled up and I felt very grown up.
Isn’t it amazing what a mask (make up, hair and clothes) will do to your confidence? I strutted into that club like I was still on the runway.
And when our eyes met, instead of rushing over and swooning at his feet (like I wanted to), I looked at him coyly (I don’t know where I learned to), gave him my best smile and walked to the bar.
Anyway, this is not the point of this blog. We hung out a couple of times and shortly after we each went our way. He wasn’t ’bout that life back then and the girls who had fully bloomed were apparently no competition for me.
In all fairness, I wasn’t ’bout that life either. I was just starting to spread my wings, test waters, and break rules at home. (You guys know that doesn’t go over well if your mom’s Dominican!)
The point of this blog is that over the years we reconnected a few times via social media. He no longer lived in area. And life had gone on for the both of us. Marriages, kids, divorces, work, etc.
Anyway we just recently reconnected AGAIN! And we happen to both be single but living thousands of miles and an ocean apart. It’s been exciting talking to him and building this mental relationship via texting and WhatsApp. Let me tell you cyberspace and social media are great for creating the perfect person in your head. I mean I imagine him larger than life still.
But I also realize that cyberspace is just that – cyberspace. It’s kind of not reality. No actually it’s not reality. So I was talking to a friend and we were saying how I could be completely disappointed when I meet him again. He could be a totally different person (personality wise).
I won’t lie I mean it’s been over 20 years since I’ve seen this guy. I was a kid back then and as far as I am concerned, he was unattainable and LARGER THAN LIFE!
Now, I’m wondering if I’ll have the same reaction when I see him or will I see him and be like “Oh, what was the big deal?”
When I was younger he seemed so – BIG! (get your minds out the gutters..LOL ). He seemed so worldly and impressive and strong. I felt young and naive, like a little girl.
But as I’ve grown older and I’ve had so many different experiences and been exposed to so much, I’ve learned a lot and have raised the bar when it comes to dating. I know I am not so easily impressed anymore. It takes more than a meal and a drink to catch and keep my attention.
When I was younger, I had a certain “type” I gravitated towards, they had to be tall, dark and handsome (what a stupid cliche). And all superficial. Again you live and learn.
Now, I am okay with a guy that is not so tall or not that fit as long as he brings other important qualities to the table like chivalry and mental stimulation. Someone who treats me and others well! Kindness goes a long way.
I am not sure what I expect when I meet this guy again in the flesh, but chances are he won’t seem as larger than life as he did back then. But then again I am sure I won’t seem so either.
Thanks for stopping by, loves! Hope you enjoyed!!
DISCLAIMER: I don’t have any new photos of me because my photographer/slash friend just doesn’t love me anymore…LOL…no but really I know you guys are so visual so I am working on them! (I don’t know why but I love disclaimers!)