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A Letter To All Cheaters

Hi My Loves! Happy Fall Equinox or whatever!  It has been some time since I’ve been here but I was just really trying to enjoy the last days of summer.  Already missing summer even though it seems that Mother Nature is loving me and giving me a little bit more.

The end of my #summerbabe summer 2019

So I’ve been thinking about cheating.  Those who cheat and those who are cheated on.  And I am not talking about a school exam.  Relationships folks! Relationships!

Disclaimer: Don’t automatically assume this is a male bashing session.  It’s not.  We all know men are not the only ones who cheat, even though it seems they are the ones who get caught the most often (dumbasses) and so therefore it seems they are the ones who cheat the most, but who knows.  I’d have to gather some data on that one.  At the end of the day we are all capable of cheating.

I’ve been on both ends of the spectrum- cheater (not my proudest moment) and cheatee (I made this word up and for the purposes of this blog the cheatee is the person being cheated on.) And I guess the person who you cheated with we will just call…. the home wrecker? IDK).  Anyway, after a most recent experience coupled with my journaling, self-reflecting and conversations with others I have really been mentally trying to dissect and process cheating and its effects on those involved.

And so you guys remember my Letter To My Younger Self? Well I’ve decided to write a letter to cheaters everywhere in the hopes that they can receive some clarity on the damage that is left behind when the cheating dust settles.  Here goes:

Dear Cheater,

I am not sure what you were thinking of the moment you made the conscious decision to cheat.  And yes it was a conscious decision.  Most cheaters will in their apology say things like “I’m sorry I made a mistake.” The reality is that cheating is cheatingNOT a mistake.  It is a conscious decision.  There are those 2.5 seconds right before you cross that line when you could have said “No!!!”  Like “Say no to drugs” well “Say no to pussy!” Especially the one that isn’t yours.

I have been trying to understand why you decided to step out on your relationship in this way.  I mean I know people cheat for a slew of reasons: stress at home or work, boredom, not enough sex, lack of spontaneity or just a basic disconnect in the relationship because nobody is addressing it.  And of course I also know Dear Cheater that you just may be one of those people who likes to cheat. And that’s a whole other blog.

An affair feels exciting, stimulating, stirring,  breathtaking!!! It boosts peoples’ self esteem and strokes the ego.   Being with someone new, someone you’re not fighting with, or dealing with the kids with, or paying bills with or just dealing with plain old life issues with is so much better than the reality of adulting.

I know an affair makes people feel young, and beautiful and sexy and in your quest to charm and entice you dress up, wear cologne/perfume, send sexy messages, you court.  It’s fucking exhilarating!!! Shit. I know. (BTW but did it ever occur to you to try that with your significant other BEFORE resorting to cheating??! Just a thought)

But Dear Cheater, let me tell you all the other things it can be and usually becomes and let me give you a little insight into what it does to the cheatee.

When an affair comes to light the ugly in people emerges.  The crazy too! Drama follows.  People’s business is put out there. Threats and humiliation. Not so pretty anymore huh? Tears and fights, lengthy texts or calls spewing every hateful word that comes to mind because as humans thats what we do when we are hurt.  We want to hurt others back.  In the case of an affair nobody is spared, not you,  not the cheatee and not the home wrecker because as much as I hate to say it they feel the effects too.

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The moment the  cheatee suspects or discovers the infidelity, this tiny seed is planted in their gut.  This seed of so many emotions.  Too many to list. The first is embarrassment and/or shame.  Yeah! Can you believe that shit?  You cheated but the cheatee feels the shame and just thinks of things like “What am I going to say to people when they ask for him or her? “What did I do wrong?”

There is also lots of anger in this initial phase. Like the cheatee will threaten everything from burning the cheaters clothes, slashing tires, physically hurting them.  (THIS IS JUST A BLOG I WOULD NOT TRY ANY OF THIS AT HOME!)

The second emotion is disbelief.  Like “WOW!” No way.  There has to be a mistake! He or she would NEVER do that!   The cheatee will spend days and nights replaying every single exchange in the relationship to figure out when, how, why?  Why becomes the single most important question. They try to look for clues or signs to see if they missed something.  This will keep them from eating, sleeping, and/or wanting to be around others.

Then comes the obsessive stage or investigative as I’d rather call it.  LOL !!! And I don’t care if your male or female all cheatees do this to some extent.  The cheatee will NOT stop until they know EVERYTHING.  Now quick insert- women are way better at this then men!  Just saying. When a woman sets her mind to find some shit out, you’d best believe she will!  In this phase they hurt so bad that you will surely not see any signs – like tears. It’s a weird thing.  I am thinking this is where the cheatee starts to process that yes it really did happen and the life they thought they were living or the future they envisioned …. wasn’t going to happen.

Soon after the hurt settles.  An ache.  More questioning.   This is probably around the time that the cheatee will find themselves crying out of nowhere.  They may be retelling the story and it evokes such strong emotions they may cry at any instant.  They will think about the intertwined friendships and families, the “place” that became yours and now what?  Maybe kids if they were involved too and having to explain to the kids that the “cheater” is no longer a part of the family – delicately of course because it’s not their fault.  This is the hardest and longest stage to process and grow through in case you didn’t know. cheating3.jpg

Eventually, the cheatee will maybe get over it, surpress it all and get on with their life and you the cheater will become a distant memory.  (Once in while and in very rare occasions a cheater and cheatee will work through things and after many, many years of rebuilding and work they may come out stronger.  May being the key word!!!

So Dear Cheater, the next time you are in a relationship in which you have made a commitment to be truthful, transparent, and loyal and you find yourself at a point of making that 2.5 split decision of cheating or not, remember the damage you are leaving behind lasts for far longer and run far deeper that those 2.5 seconds.

And in the end was it really worth it?

Love,

Cheatee

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Thank you for stopping by and reading.  If you’ve been cheated on it’s not your fault.  It was their shit and not yours. And if you have cheated, learn and grow, be better, be truthful, be transparent.

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LolaUncorked♥

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Welcome Spring -Decluttering your home, body, and soul.

Hello My Loves∼ Can we talk about Mother Nature?!?!  It’s about time this weather started clearing up.  There is just something about the Spring that evokes feelings of rebirth, cleansing, and renewal.  It’s in that spirit that I decided to do a little spring cleaning of my home, body, and soul.

Of course I have tried to come up with some simple and inexpensive ways to do this because Spring also comes on the heels of winter (HOLIDAYS) and we know we are all a little financially challenged around this time. LOL!!!

I’m just going to share some of the things I’ve done so far for my home, body and soul for zero to little dollars to start that cleansing process.  I also feel that after the whole “new year, new me” shenanigans, this is probably around the time that people have hit a plateau or fallen off the wagon so this is a great way to reenergize and start over!

Home:

  1. A fresh coat of paint goes a long way.  I focused on my living room first since that’s the entry point.  What a difference it was to go from a stone color to a very pale gray.  I hunt for “oops” paint from Home Depot, so I was able to pick up two one-gallon cans for $9.00 each.  I did pay someone to paint.  However, painting is super therapeutic and a great weekend project if you want to do it yourself.
  2. Throw stuff out!  If you haven’t used it in the last 6 months (I know some people say a year), but really just donate it.  Declutter your closets and your drawers.  Throw out all those single pairs of socks – they are NEVER coming back from laundry hell!
  3. Purchase new linens for your bathroom and bedroom, new sheets, towels, shower curtain make small differences and brighten things up a bit.  If your towels are still good try to incorporate a second color – for example, my old towels were shades of gray, so I went and picked up a couple of white and blush pink towels on sale at Target.  I took my old towels and recycled them to clean up, mop, and for car.
  4. I had a lot of dark bronze home decor, towel rack, three tiered shelf in bathroom, small mirror to name a few.  Instead of chucking them I picked spray painted them a brushed gold and they look like completely new pieces.
  5. Go through your kitchen cabinets and linen closet.  Check for expiration dates, old sunscreen, those hotel samples and throw them out!

These are some simple things you can do to start the decluttering process in preparation for Spring which leads to Summer.  And I know sometimes it is so overwhelming.  If you’re anything like me I want to do it all at once, but I didn’t want to clutter my mind more, right?

So I made a list of all the things I want to do at home and I tackle large projects on the weekend and smaller ones during the week.  My bathroom is done.  Check it out!!  I love it and it probably cost me less than $75 bucks to revamp.  (I’ll blog about it later!)

I’ve done things in the rest of apartment but haven’t finished yet, tackling my room this weekend, then kitchen, and lastly my living room.!  It is such a great feeling walking into my brighter, cleaner more springier space!

OH! One more simple thing you can do at home – REARRANGE furniture.  You’d be surprised I switched a couple pieces up and all of a sudden I see the whole space in a new light!

The Body

Now let’s talk about decluttering your body, literally! LOL

Listen we are on the heels of the holidays, Valentine’s Day, St. Patrick’s day.  And for me, also my 50th!  So the eating has been the worst.  So I decided to go on keto not too long ago, just to try and curb the carb and sugar cravings.

Of course I am not promoting Keto, but I am suggesting a change in diet as part of your physical spring cleaning….Try a one week detox or an egg fast (this is the big thing now).  Anything to get your body UN-stuck. Liquid cleanses are hard, but are great for cleansing those intestines and getting your digestive system moving.  The beginning of these are always challenging as your body goes through withdrawal making you feel sluggish, but the benefits at the end are great.

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Grabbed this at Kiehl’s. Great starter kit for $68.  The eye cream is everything!!

Other little things you can do are more self care, face sheet masks, hot baths with Epsom salt help to shed water, and body scrubs for some of those dead skin cells.  I’ve recently purchased some new products from Kiehls because I want to try some new face products  as it seems my previous ones wern’t giving me the results I wanted anymore.  Shampoos and conditioners are always a great place to start as well.

Once your home is decluttered, you need a happy invigorated body to enjoy it!!

The Soul

This is my favorite of course, because in order to enjoy all of the above, you have to get your soul right.  I find this especially important at this time of year.  It’s like coming out of hibernation after a long winter’s sleep.  I always have a variety of ways to do this.

The first thing I am doing is revamping my vision board.   See what has shifted in my life, what needs more focus, what I’ve checked off, how I’ve grown.  You can do this as a quiet Sunday project, get your materials, light some candles, meditate, reflect and visualize!  Or you can have a vision board party and bring that collective energy into the room!

Secondly, I’ve also committed to journaling more frequently, right after I meditate for a few minutes in the morning.  Many of us struggle with meditation.  I did for a long time, until I heard Eckart Tolle say that all meditating is, is paying attention to the breath.

One conscious breath in and out is a meditation.

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When we pay attention to the breath we bring ourselves back to the present and when you’re in the present everything changes.  Try a guided meditation app if that helps.  I have an Alexa at home so in the morning and evening I ask it to play a guided meditation for me. It’s a great way to start and end my day.

I’ve found all those cute canvas prints about love, positivity and spiritually and I placed them strategically in my home where I see them on a regular – in my bathroom wall opposite my mirror, right on my nightstand, in the kitchen next to the coffee area.  These are just great reminders and act as daily affirmations to set up your day for success!

Lastly, pray.  I know, I know.  If anyone knows me I am not necessarily a religious person so this may come as a shock.  But honestly I pray all day long.  I give thanks, I express gratitude, I send blessings to everyone I meet, and I pray every single night.  Prayer is grounding and as I’ve gotten older, I’ve finally stopped questioning the Universe and God.  Because they always deliver.

Spring is a time for renewal and rebirth – I hope some of these tips help and hopefully you can share some I didn’t mention with me.

Happy Spring cleaning!  Thanks for stopping by.

LolaUncorked♥

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